글쓰기 메뉴
0 1
Square

Waves of emotions

바다라고 믿어
자랄 수 있었구나.
나도 목마르지 않다.
2 1

The Lord of the Rings

멋지니 같이 감상.
4 2
Square

richness of flower bouquet

꽃이 
피는 것은 한 때지만, 

그것이 찰나적 아름다움은 아니다. 
그 마음과 추억은 영원하기에.

신께 기도한다. 
그런 삶이 되게 해달라고.
1 1

The juice of life

Have you ever been destroyed?
I have... 
1 0

why

why are you doing this to me?
Are you afraid of me?
0 0

I can't name it

Hunger 라고 했다가, 
Passion 이라고 했다가, 
Loneliness 라고 바꿔야 할까, 
A sense of loss 라고 해야 할까, 
Lonesomeness 라고 했다가, 
sense of defeat, & alienation 일까,

그냥 일하기가 싫은가, 
그냥 고행을 마다하고 싶은가. 
결혼을 해야 되나, 

피아노를 사야 되나. 
거문고에 술 마시던 몸 때문인가,

대화가 부족한가 - 오늘 고귀한 영혼과 이미 대화하고 마음자리 다 짚었는데.
(게다가, invitation 까지.)

감성 (感性)이 결핍되었나,
there must be so many things in life, but I will sense only good virtue to make me happy.
0 2

hyuuuuuuuun

lkjlkjlk
lkmlkj
ljlkjlkjlkj
kjkjlkjljljkljlkjljljljllkjlkjlkjlkjlkjljlj
-founder and publisher of De Correspondent, a Dutch journalism platform that broke the world record in journalism 
crowdfunding and now has 28,000 paying subscribers (€60 p/y), I’m spending a lot of my time working on our
Refining the path our readers tak
3 1
Square

뻔뻔하게 글을 씁시다

글쓰기의 목적은 여러분 아버지와 어머니가 부끄러워 졸도하게 만드는 데 있다.
- J.P. 돈리비
The purpose of writing is to make your mother and father drop dead with shame
- J. P. Donleavy
글쓰기 : 지금 당장 뻔뻔하게 글 쓰기
사진: National Portrait Gallery
1 1

a change of conference venue

1. conference venue 가 바뀌었다. 제길슨, 가뜩이나 연구비가 부족한데, 물 한 잔 부터 모든 게 다 비싼 나라로 변경되었다. 이제, 노트북 사는 건 완전 포기다. 이 탱크 같은 1kg 가 넘는 노트북을 더 들고 다녀야 돼?

2. administration 처리하는 게 너무 싫어서, 금주를 잘 지키다가, 지금 소주를 마시고 있다. 아직, 영수증 처리 힐 것이 많은데 이러고 있다. There is something wrong with mentality. 영수증 처리하는 게 이렇게 싫은거는, 뭔가 문제가 있는 거다. 
3. we all die, but why not today.
2 3
Square

He wishes for the cloths of heaven

He wished for the cloths of heaven
William Butler Yeats
HAD I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
내게 황금빛과 은빛으로 짜여진 
천국의 옷감이 있다면,
푸르고 어둑하고 어두운 빛의 반밖에 안되는 밤처럼 어두운 옷감이 있다면,
당신이 발 밑에 그 옷감을 깔아드리고 싶어요.
하지만, 가난하여, 꿈 밖에 가진 것이 없으니,
당신의 발 빝에 나의 꿈이라도 깔아드릴께요.
부드럽게 밟아주세요. 당신이 밟는 것은 나의 꿈이니까요.
문득 예이츠의 시가 생각이 나서 발번역으로 공유합니다.
2 2
Square

볼테르의 명언으로 시작된 혼란

처음엔 그냥 좋은 문장 하나 찾았으니 대충 멋있는 척 올려보자였는데 이게 쉽사리 끝이 나질 않는다.
- Voltaire
완벽함에 이르기 위해 작업을 끝내지 못한다면 충분한 상태로 끝난 작업보다 못하다는 해석이 적당하다.

Le meglio è l'inimico del bene
볼테르(Voltaire)의 철학사전(Dictionnaire philosophique)에 있는 내용으로 옥스포드 인용 사전에 수록되어 있다고 함.
2003년 구글 answers 에서 사용자들끼리 레퍼런스를 찾아내는 재미난 쓰레드도 있네.

The best is the enemy of good
좋고 나쁨의 여러 단계에서 사회통념적으로 영단어 "best"가 의미하는 단계를 어디로 보는가에 따라 문장의 느낌의 달라질텐데 나는 "best" 가 극도로 좋다는 표현으로 느껴지지 않아 Perfect가 사용된 문장이 좋다. 
The perfect is the enemy of good

인터넷에 '볼테르'의 명언으로 번역된 문구는 크게 2가지.
최선은 선의 적이다
"선(善)"이 "최선(最善)"에 못 미친 상태인건 맞는 것 같은데 "선"이라는 단어가 그 쓰임에 와닿지 않고 "최선"은 극한의 상태를 표현한다고 느껴지지 않는다. 돌직구같은 아래의 번역이 마음에 든다.

완벽함은 훌륭함의 적이다

그런데 제품을 만들어 사업을 하는 나는:

정말 "완벽함"을 추구하지 않아도 될까?
스티븐 잡스의 아이폰은 완벽함을 추구하는 제품의 아름다움과 강력함을 증명한 결과물이 아닌가?
완벽함을 포기하고 현재에 안주하고자 하는 내게 당위성을 부여하는 변명의 문장인가?
만약 완벽함이 아니라면 내 작업과 제품의 "훌륭함" 단계는 무슨 기준으로 정해야할까?
아, 머리 아퍼.
내가 이 문장에 왜 매달리고 있는거지?
그렇지만 뭔가 생각을 포기해버리면 안될 것 같은 기분.

내 친구 중에 부모님이 크고 아름다운 식당을 하는 친구가 있어.
어릴 때부터 잘 알던 친구고 그 집 부모님들과도 오래 알고 지내서 거기서 뭘 먹고 돈을 내본적이 없지.
하지만 너무 당연하게 갈 때마다 식사를 마치면 계산서를 들고 카운터로 가.
"어머니, 잘 먹었습니다. 여기, 5만원 맞죠?"

"이놈 봐라? 내가 니 돈 받겠냐? 맛있게 먹었으면 자주나 와라."
"어휴~ 어머니, 자꾸 돈을 안받으시니까 부담스러워서 못 오자나요."
"에라, 이놈아! 어여 가고 다음주에 또 와."
그런데 서로가 대사를 바꾸면 아주 골때리지.
"어머니, 저한테 돈 받으실거 아니죠? 또 올께요!"
"5만원이나 나왔는데 또 돈 안내고 그냥 가려고?"
"어휴~ 어머니 언제는 제가 돈 냈어요? 하루이틀 알고 지낸 사이도 아니고."
"아니 이놈아 공짜로 처먹을라면 1~2년에 한두번이나 오던가!"
뻔한 결론이 나와버렸네.
내 제품의 "훌륭함"을 내가 판단할 수 없다는 것.

비유로 든 얘기가 생산자와 소비자의 거래에 대한 얘기라 오해의 여지가 있지만, 여기서 강조하고 싶은 부분은 각자의 입장에서 안전하게 할 수 있는 말이 있다는 것과 어떤 말을 입 밖에 꺼내면 웃긴 놈이 된다는 것.
제품의 사용자들이 제품의 훌륭함과 완벽함을 판단할 수 있는 것이지 내가 제품의 훌륭함과 완벽함을 단정한다는 것이 이미 주제넘은 일인 것 같네.
이쯤에서 다시 한번, 내 사업이 인터넷/온라인 서비스에 기반하고 있음에 감사해야겠네.
이건 조각이나 벽화, 건축이나 공산품과 다르게 명확한 문제를 해결하는 기능들을 작은 단위로 끊임없이 사용자에게 제공하고 실시간에 가깝게 어떤 단계에 있는지 가늠할 수 있다는 점이 정말 감사하네.
제품의 단계가 "완벽함 - 훌륭함 - 충분함 - 부족함 - 쓰레기" 다섯 단계라고 봤을 때 내 제품들은 아직 부족함과 쓰레기 사이를 오가고 있지만 이건 문자 그대로 "단계"인거야.
하나씩 해결하고 한걸음씩 내딛으면 결국 앞으로, 위로 나아갈 수 있는 그런 게임이지.
다들 힘내자구.


영문위키: Perfect is the enemy of good
+) 내가 대체 왜, 어디서 시작해서 어떤 전개로 여기까지 온거냐?
1 1

Bring it all back - S club 7

Don't stop, never give up, 
Hold your head high and reach the top,
Let the World see what you have got, 
Bring it all back to you
Hold on to what you try to be your individuality, 
When the world is on your shoulders, 
Just smile and let it go,
If people try to put you down, 
just walk on by don't turn around;
You only have to answer to yourself,
Don't you know its true what they say, 
That life it ain' t easy,
But your time is coming around
Don't stop, never give up, 
Hold your head high and reach the top,
Let the world see what you have got, 
Bring it all back to you, 
Dream of falling in Love,
Anything you've been thinking of,
When the world seems to get to tough,
Bring it all back to you.
Try not to worry about a thing, 
Enjoy the good times life can bring,
Keep good all the solitude,
Got to let the feeling show,
Imagination is the key,
Because you are your own destiny, 
Never should be lonely when time is on your side.
Don't you know its true what they say, 
Things are said to try you, 
But your times is coming around,
(So don't stop trying) 
Don't stop, never give up,
Hold your head high and reach the top, 
Let the world see what you have got,
Bring it all back to you,
Dream of falling in Love,
Anything you've been thinking of, 
When the world seems to get to tough, 
Bring it all back to you.
Don't you know its true what they say,
Things happen for a reason,
But you times coming around,
0 1

맨하튼의 선신

<맨하튼의 선신>에게서 연락이 왔다.
그는 외교부 떡밥, 정확히 말해 영국빠거든.

'맞아... 온기가 필요해' 라고 하는 나를 향해,

마음의 위로를 해주신다라.

카톡털어서 유혹하는 거잖아.

인터넷 신문기사는 늘 카톡의 내용을 베껴놓으셨지.

도대체, 무슨 멘털일까? 
'감시하고 있어'

그게 메세지야?

그가 벌어들인 돈을 생각하면, 구역질이 난다.
그래서, 둘이 경쟁이 붙으셨나.

아니면, 대타야?

내가 마티스를 거절해서, 불쌍해?

괜찮아.

Frequency 를 tuning 하여, 쓰잘데기 없는 쓰레기 정보를 읽어서,

꼭 인터넷 신문에 메인 기사로 올려주시는 친절함까지 갖추셨다. 

Lloyds Bank 에서 거래를 시작할 때도 그랫듯,

신문 기사를 읽을 때도 그렇지.
그리고  University of E의 교수를 대할 때도 마찬가지.

언제쯤 저들의 시선에서 벗어날 수 있을까,

어차피, 인간은 다 죽어.

그래서 메세지가 뭐야,

'너보다 위에 있어?'

이건 하나의 전쟁이다.

그들은 심리를 읽어 신문 기사를 도배하고 내 반응을 기다리고 있는 늑대와 같고,

나는 최대한 그들의 알고리즘을 destroy 하는 방향으로 반응한다.

'엿먹어. 어차피, 진실은 없어. '

아니, 쓰레기에게 줄 진실이 없는 거지.
어차피, 쓰레기들은 다 믿는다.
인간에 대한 이해를 지닌 놈들이 아니기에.
뭘 알아서 하는 게 아니니까.

갈망과 허기, 그리고 외로움을 파고드는 그 늑대들이

다시금 떡밥을 던지고,

현재 스코어, 1:0 이다. 
그들의 졷같은 시선을 본다.
"역시 저급하군. 고작, 그렇게 읽었어? "
내가 이래서 그들을 싫어하잖아.

그들의 떡밥을 외면할 것이다.

아직은 초연할 수가 있어.

" 기분이 어때? 초조하지...씹히니까. "
cat fishing 이라고 생각할 텐데..... 
꼴에 날 어떻게 해보고 싶어한다니.

주제 파악해.
0 1

Being me

"Mom,Mom! Are you alright? Where are you?" If something goes wrong with her it's will all be my fault. I shouldn't have leaved her alone and come to Forks..."Bella? Bella, bella! Bella, where are you?" Rènee! She's here, she's alive. She's going to be okay...
I've never given much thought to how I would die-though I'd had reason enough in the last few months- but even if I had, I would have not imagined it like this. Still, I can't get myself to regret this decision. The decision that made me come here to die. Because I loved her as much as I loved Edward.
"Bella, Bella!"
"Mom, I suck."
"You do not suck! You're a wonderful dancer."
"Everybody is making fun of me…"
 This talk was oddly farmilliar. Then I knew.
 "No..." It was all I could say. He tricked me to death. 
I thought I was ready, But I wasn't. I was never ready. Even I don't die and become a vampire, I will not be able to live. I wasn't ready. Yet. Or I thought I wasn't.
"Oh...dear...You were a stuborn child, wern't you?" His cruel voice was screeching. It was too horrifying but also beautiful. "What have you done to her??" He must be out of mind. "Don't worry. She's safe in Jacksonville. She doesn't even know you're here." At least my mother was safe. "But still, you made things too easy...It isn't much fun. Is it? I wanted to see your dear Edward's feeble atempt to save you. So, to make things more entertainainig, I'll send this little film of our time together to your mate. Is it okay?" No! Then, he'll be in danger…"No! Absolutely not! He...he has nothing to do with this!" But he merly chuckled. "He absolutly has every thing to do with this. I borrowed this camera from your house, and I hope you don't mind. Good. And, Action!" 
What? 
He was a monster. A cruel monster who played with his food. I was the victim tonight. 
Edward, Edward! 
The moment we kissed for the first time shook my thoughts. It was all I could think about. If I have to die, I will die a graceful death, thingking the happiest moment in my life. I could almost see his pale white, blazing cold fingers wiping my warm cheekbones all the way to my lips and collarbones.
I could die for him. I just wished that victoria wouldn't touch him. 
No. He was strong enough. He will survive through this. I know it.
But me...I was just a fragile human. Too easy to break. Even James just flings a finger, my head could brek in a second.
But I still had to survive this. Run away if possible.
How could I distract him?
                                         ~oOo~
"Bella, take this pepper spray. This will make me a bit more relived."
 "Well...I don't know…I mean, all thus animal attacks, it happens very rarely." 
"Please. I bet Edward will approve it too. He's like crazy about your safety."
                                         ~oOo~
I don't know why, but this memory just popped out of my head. It wasn't for sure but, this might work. But not for long.
"Tchhh" Suddenly, my feet seemed to be glued on the floor. I couldn't move. I was scared.
"Ha, Ha, Ha. Did you reay think that the pepper spray will work?" He was furious at me for trying to live. But what else could I do? Just sit down and wait for my life to end? I had to do something. And then, he tossed me like anrag doll. "CRACK!" Oww… My head was bleeding. Wait, blood? He was a vampire. He was not even a vegetarian.
"Tell him!! Tell him how much it hurts!!" Suddenly, he pressed my leg under his foot with all his strength. I couldn't feel anything for a second. But then, the pain struck me. My leg was snapping under his freezingly cold fingers. All I could think about was the pain in my leg. I had to make it go away. But how? I tried to scream. But his too-tight-fingers were pressing my lips like a cold stone, making me unable to say anything. I had to do something.
No, that was not the important thing. I couldn't see well because of my blazzing pain but, I could feel his icy lips on my left arm.
I thought 'I will die.'
And then, the coldness was gone. Other coldness filled me again. But now, it was a familia and cozy coldness.
My nosetrills flared. I could smell Edward's raspberry-mint flavoured breath. I had to have it more. It made my pain go away. I had to gulp the air around me.
"Bella, I'm so sorry. I'll take you to carlisle and treat you." His velvet voice made my every single bodypart melt. I could taste his sweet flavour. Treating my broken leg was not the important thing now. Being with him was.
"Edward….Edward, don't go! Don't…" He stood up suddenly. Don't go! I can't live without you! I don't need anything in except for you. "I'm not going anywhere. Hold on tight." His pained whisper made my heart reap. He shouldn't be in pain. Was he hurt? Then I knew. He was not hurt. Watching me hurt was hurting him.
"We'll jump." Then, we bounced up in the sky. I thought we were free.
But we wern't.
"I won't let you go." James had jump to make us fall.
We crashed down the hall. I could see clearly again. James was strangling edward's neck!
"You came here because you are faster than the others. But not stronger." He was lunatic. Absolutely lethal as Laurent said.
"I'm strong enough to kill you!"
But then, he crashed into the floor. James was strong. He began to run. But where was he runing to? He was getting closer to me by every second.
"No!" He was coming to bite me.
Edward! Please come and save me!
But he was nowhere near me and the lunatic vampire was crouching toward me. His cold hands covered my ankles. I tried to get out of his hand but he was too strong.
It all happened in a second. At first it was a pleasant warmth. But as the clock ticked by, it grew hotter and hotter. 
Warm. Hot. Fire. Too much fire!
I had too much fire in my body. My bones was shreiking in pain. It was a pain beyond pain. No one would know this pain if he havn't felt it.
James, snapping my legs under his foot. That was nothing. That was a soft place to rest on a feather bed. I'd take that now, a hundred times. A hundred snaps. I'd take it and be grateful.
Deep blue sea, drowning my breathes, trying to kill me. That was nothing. That was a floating in the cool pool. I'd take it a thousand times. Take it and be grateful.
"Carlisle!" Edward shouted for Carlisle. "We need to cure broken leg." No! Please make the fire go away! My broken leg wasn't important now. My left hand was burning fire. Not only my arm but my entire body was. "Alice, tie her legs upper than my hands. Unfasten your belt." His voice was buisness-like.
 Then he saw my arm where it was bitten by james.
Now, his voice turned iike he was in a great hurry.
"He bit her. We need to suck her venom out. Or there actually is another option...We could simply let the change happen."
The change? Me being vampire? It was a better option but my pain was too big to fight off.
I wanted him to suck up my venom. But will he be able to stop? We still had to try.
"Edward. Suck. The venom. Out. Now!"
It was all I could say. I could scream but, it was no good after all.
Seconds ticked by.
Did edward suck my venom up? 
No he didn't. I didn't feel the pain shrinking. I was becoming one of them. I knew that it was too late to suck it. 
The venom had already reached my heart.
                                         ~oOo~
[Edward]
When I arrived, James was almost biting her ankle. I don't think, I just lunge. I never have imagined that I would sacrifice myself for a little girl in my existance.
I never knew what was Alice like to Jasper.
I never understood clearly why they would rather die than to live alone.
But now, after a hundred years of practice for this very moment, I resisted human blood. When Carlisle told that resisting will make me more caring and loving, I didn't knew what he was talking about, but I could understand it now.
I never felt somthing similar to 'love' exept for my familly.
But the girl, a fragile, small and vulnerable girl made me feel that thing.
When she came into my life, when I finally found what a love was, when I first saw her, 
my heart began to beat again.
I was smiling again.
I found myself crazed and dazed by her small little smile.
It was like a midsummer night's dream.