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why are you doing this to me?

Are you afraid of me?

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Being me

"Mom,Mom! Are you alright? Where are you?" If something goes wrong with her it's will all be my fault. I shouldn't have leaved her alone and come to Forks..."Bella? Bella, bella! Bella, where are you?" Rènee! She's here, she's alive. She's going to be okay...
I've never given much thought to how I would die-though I'd had reason enough in the last few months- but even if I had, I would have not imagined it like this. Still, I can't get myself to regret this decision. The decision that made me come here to die. Because I loved her as much as I loved Edward.
"Bella, Bella!"
"Mom, I suck."
"You do not suck! You're a wonderful dancer."
"Everybody is making fun of me…"
 This talk was oddly farmilliar. Then I knew.
 "No..." It was all I could say. He tricked me to death. 
I thought I was ready, But I wasn't. I was never ready. Even I don't die and become a vampire, I will not be able to live. I wasn't ready. Yet. Or I thought I wasn't.
"Oh...dear...You were a stuborn child, wern't you?" His cruel voice was screeching. It was too horrifying but also beautiful. "What have you done to her??" He must be out of mind. "Don't worry. She's safe in Jacksonville. She doesn't even know you're here." At least my mother was safe. "But still, you made things too easy...It isn't much fun. Is it? I wanted to see your dear Edward's feeble atempt to save you. So, to make things more entertainainig, I'll send this little film of our time together to your mate. Is it okay?" No! Then, he'll be in danger…"No! Absolutely not! He...he has nothing to do with this!" But he merly chuckled. "He absolutly has every thing to do with this. I borrowed this camera from your house, and I hope you don't mind. Good. And, Action!" 
What? 
He was a monster. A cruel monster who played with his food. I was the victim tonight. 
Edward, Edward! 
The moment we kissed for the first time shook my thoughts. It was all I could think about. If I have to die, I will die a graceful death, thingking the happiest moment in my life. I could almost see his pale white, blazing cold fingers wiping my warm cheekbones all the way to my lips and collarbones.
I could die for him. I just wished that victoria wouldn't touch him. 
No. He was strong enough. He will survive through this. I know it.
But me...I was just a fragile human. Too easy to break. Even James just flings a finger, my head could brek in a second.
But I still had to survive this. Run away if possible.
How could I distract him?
                                         ~oOo~
"Bella, take this pepper spray. This will make me a bit more relived."
 "Well...I don't know…I mean, all thus animal attacks, it happens very rarely." 
"Please. I bet Edward will approve it too. He's like crazy about your safety."
                                         ~oOo~
I don't know why, but this memory just popped out of my head. It wasn't for sure but, this might work. But not for long.
"Tchhh" Suddenly, my feet seemed to be glued on the floor. I couldn't move. I was scared.
"Ha, Ha, Ha. Did you reay think that the pepper spray will work?" He was furious at me for trying to live. But what else could I do? Just sit down and wait for my life to end? I had to do something. And then, he tossed me like anrag doll. "CRACK!" Oww… My head was bleeding. Wait, blood? He was a vampire. He was not even a vegetarian.
"Tell him!! Tell him how much it hurts!!" Suddenly, he pressed my leg under his foot with all his strength. I couldn't feel anything for a second. But then, the pain struck me. My leg was snapping under his freezingly cold fingers. All I could think about was the pain in my leg. I had to make it go away. But how? I tried to scream. But his too-tight-fingers were pressing my lips like a cold stone, making me unable to say anything. I had to do something.
No, that was not the important thing. I couldn't see well because of my blazzing pain but, I could feel his icy lips on my left arm.
I thought 'I will die.'
And then, the coldness was gone. Other coldness filled me again. But now, it was a familia and cozy coldness.
My nosetrills flared. I could smell Edward's raspberry-mint flavoured breath. I had to have it more. It made my pain go away. I had to gulp the air around me.
"Bella, I'm so sorry. I'll take you to carlisle and treat you." His velvet voice made my every single bodypart melt. I could taste his sweet flavour. Treating my broken leg was not the important thing now. Being with him was.
"Edward….Edward, don't go! Don't…" He stood up suddenly. Don't go! I can't live without you! I don't need anything in except for you. "I'm not going anywhere. Hold on tight." His pained whisper made my heart reap. He shouldn't be in pain. Was he hurt? Then I knew. He was not hurt. Watching me hurt was hurting him.
"We'll jump." Then, we bounced up in the sky. I thought we were free.
But we wern't.
"I won't let you go." James had jump to make us fall.
We crashed down the hall. I could see clearly again. James was strangling edward's neck!
"You came here because you are faster than the others. But not stronger." He was lunatic. Absolutely lethal as Laurent said.
"I'm strong enough to kill you!"
But then, he crashed into the floor. James was strong. He began to run. But where was he runing to? He was getting closer to me by every second.
"No!" He was coming to bite me.
Edward! Please come and save me!
But he was nowhere near me and the lunatic vampire was crouching toward me. His cold hands covered my ankles. I tried to get out of his hand but he was too strong.
It all happened in a second. At first it was a pleasant warmth. But as the clock ticked by, it grew hotter and hotter. 
Warm. Hot. Fire. Too much fire!
I had too much fire in my body. My bones was shreiking in pain. It was a pain beyond pain. No one would know this pain if he havn't felt it.
James, snapping my legs under his foot. That was nothing. That was a soft place to rest on a feather bed. I'd take that now, a hundred times. A hundred snaps. I'd take it and be grateful.
Deep blue sea, drowning my breathes, trying to kill me. That was nothing. That was a floating in the cool pool. I'd take it a thousand times. Take it and be grateful.
"Carlisle!" Edward shouted for Carlisle. "We need to cure broken leg." No! Please make the fire go away! My broken leg wasn't important now. My left hand was burning fire. Not only my arm but my entire body was. "Alice, tie her legs upper than my hands. Unfasten your belt." His voice was buisness-like.
 Then he saw my arm where it was bitten by james.
Now, his voice turned iike he was in a great hurry.
"He bit her. We need to suck her venom out. Or there actually is another option...We could simply let the change happen."
The change? Me being vampire? It was a better option but my pain was too big to fight off.
I wanted him to suck up my venom. But will he be able to stop? We still had to try.
"Edward. Suck. The venom. Out. Now!"
It was all I could say. I could scream but, it was no good after all.
Seconds ticked by.
Did edward suck my venom up? 
No he didn't. I didn't feel the pain shrinking. I was becoming one of them. I knew that it was too late to suck it. 
The venom had already reached my heart.
                                         ~oOo~
[Edward]
When I arrived, James was almost biting her ankle. I don't think, I just lunge. I never have imagined that I would sacrifice myself for a little girl in my existance.
I never knew what was Alice like to Jasper.
I never understood clearly why they would rather die than to live alone.
But now, after a hundred years of practice for this very moment, I resisted human blood. When Carlisle told that resisting will make me more caring and loving, I didn't knew what he was talking about, but I could understand it now.
I never felt somthing similar to 'love' exept for my familly.
But the girl, a fragile, small and vulnerable girl made me feel that thing.
When she came into my life, when I finally found what a love was, when I first saw her, 
my heart began to beat again.
I was smiling again.
I found myself crazed and dazed by her small little smile.
It was like a midsummer night's dream.
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why

왜 여기에 오지.

나를 쓰레기 취급한 곳인데.

1. 갈 곳이 없어서. 똥파리 때문에.

2. 로그인 하지 않으면 글을 쓸 수 있는 곳이 없어져서.

3. 그냥 취해서
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Why!?

그렇다면 이런 국내외 기업들이 위키를 쓰는 이유가 뭘까요?
간단하게 설명하면 '오피스 프로그램만으로 일을 하는 경우 발생하는 문제점을 보완하기 위해서 필요하다.' 라고 할 수 있습니다. 요즘은 카카오톡 으로 일하는 경우도 있지만, 여전히 그리고 앞으로도 대부분의 업무는 MS오피스나 iWorks로 작성돼고 이메일을 통해서 이뤄질 것 입니다.
이런 프로그램들은 다양한 기능을 제공하고, 무척 편리한 도구임이 분명하지만 몇 가지 문제점이 있습니다. 
이메일은 언젠가 '지워'집니다.
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Reason why I chose Nightmare over phantomjs, casperjs, selenium and ...

테스트용이 아니라 자동화, 스크랩핑(automation, scraping) 용도로 헤드리스 브라우저 - headless browser: 그래픽 인터페이스가 없고 프로그래밍으로 컨트롤 가능한 브라우저 - 를 살펴보고 있는데 종류도 많고 문서 읽어보면 각각의 장점도 분명해서 선택이 어렵다.
이럴땐 사용자도 많고 소스도 오랜시간 검증된 안전한 선택이 좋겠다.
하지만 ㅋㅋㅋ 결론적으로 이번 플젝에 Nightmare 를 선택한 이유는..
Nightmare 공홈이 너무 귀여워서 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
ㅋㅋㅋ 개귀염
phantomjs 를 엔진으로 쓰다가 2배가량 빠르다는 Electron 으로 엔진을 교체했다는 솔깃한 얘기는 덤.
콜백지옥을 경험하지 않아도 되는 코딩 스타일도 덤.
react 로 작성된 웹페이지와 같이 특정 노드를 대기할 수 있는 메소드가 있는 것도 덤.
- 끝 -
http://www.nightmarejs.org/

http://www.seleniumhq.org/

http://casperjs.org/
http://phantomjs.org/
https://electron.atom.io/

https://github.com/dhamaniasad/HeadlessBrowsers [헤드리스 브라우저 리스트 - outdated]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Headless_browser [헤드리스 브라우저 위키]
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perfume than eau de cologne

 Gong asked " Lee.......what is the smell? soap?"
I said, "No...it's perfume"

Gong asked "why do you wear that?"
I answered, "because wine is not enought for me."
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a change of conference venue

1. conference venue 가 바뀌었다. 제길슨, 가뜩이나 연구비가 부족한데, 물 한 잔 부터 모든 게 다 비싼 나라로 변경되었다. 이제, 노트북 사는 건 완전 포기다. 이 탱크 같은 1kg 가 넘는 노트북을 더 들고 다녀야 돼?

2. administration 처리하는 게 너무 싫어서, 금주를 잘 지키다가, 지금 소주를 마시고 있다. 아직, 영수증 처리 힐 것이 많은데 이러고 있다. There is something wrong with mentality. 영수증 처리하는 게 이렇게 싫은거는, 뭔가 문제가 있는 거다. 
3. we all die, but why not today.
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안티인 연예인 팬들에게 하고픈 말

아니 팬들아 
미안한데
여긴 '안티'밴드야 
그치?
눈이 삐지 않은이상 그건 보일거야
근데 왜 여기서 덕질임?
니네가 그런다고 안티가 없어져?
니네 덕질 글에 악플달리면 싫어하잖어..
그냥 공감하고 말 통하는 팬밴드로 가;;
또, 어떤 연예인이든 안티가 아예 없는 경우는 없어
국민 MC유재석도 안티카페,밴드 없는 위너도, 
팬 많은 방탄도 최소 1명의 안티는 있다고.
좋아하는게 자유인거처럼 싫어하는거도 자유야
왜 싫어하지말라 그래?
니네는 싫어하는 연예인 없어?
너보고 싫어하지마라 좋아하지마라 하면 좋냐? 
그리고 나 같은경우에는 워너원을 싫어하진 않았음
프듀 보지도 않았고, 위너랑 아이콘 외엔 좋아하거나 싫어하는 아이돌이 없었거든.
근데 많은 사람들이 알다시피
'워너시티'랑 '위너시티'사이의 논란이 일었지.
그 전에 워너블들이 
위너원 위너블 거리는걸 봤지만
이너서클(위너 팬)들은 아무말 안했어.
위너 검색하는데 맨 위에 위너원이 뜨고 위너는 밑에 있는게 기분 나빴지만 참았어.
검색했는데 워너원 사진만 잔뜩 나오는거도 참았어.
이너서클이 꽤 깨끗하고 무개념 없는 팬덤이고, 
위너도 안티가 적어서
그거 유지할려고 참았다고.
근데 '워너시티'?
'워너원시티'는 안되는거야?
물론 그게 워너원이나 워너블 잘못은 아니야.
우리는 처음에 제작진,방송사에 따졌어.
근데 걔내가 씹드라?
그래서 우리가 빡쳐서 막 SNS에
#위너시티를_지켜주세요 라는 태그를 엄청 올렸어.
우리는 워너원이 지은 이름이 아니라는걸 알기에
원망하지 않았고.
근데 무슨일이 일어났게?
워너블이 위너를 욕하는거야.
"애초에 왜 위너시티라는 이름을 썼냐"
"문제 있냐"
"듣보가 까불어"
라고
우린 워너원하고 워너블을 건들이 않았는데말이야.
그래서 지금 인서랑 워너블 사이에 팬덤싸움 날 지경까지 갔는데, 그거때매 인서들이 워너원까지 욕하기 시작했지.
그랬더니 뭐라는지 알아?
"아이돌은 잘못없어"
위너는 아이돌 아니야?
나 뿐만 아니라 많은 인서들이 그렇겠지만
워너원이 싫기보단 워너블이 싫은거야
무개념팬이 많으니깐
근데 신경도 안쓰고 안밴까지 와서 지랄을 떠니
정이 들겠어?
내가 보면 워너원뿐만 아니라
엑소,방탄,여친 등 팬덤이 큰 아이돌들은 
그 팬덤에서 우월감을 느끼는 무개념들이 
타 아이돌을 욕하면서 무개념짓을 함으로써
알아서 팬덤 분위기를 망치고,
안티들한테 안티가 된 이유를 물으니깐 가장 많이 나온게
"무개념 팬 때문"이었어
그니깐 찔리면 좀 꺼져;;
이 글에서 너무 위너 얘기만 한건 좀 그렇지만,
니네가 안티를 신경 안쓰면 너네도 편해
안티랑 싸우러 왔어
니네가 그런다고 안티 없어져?
니네 기분이 좋아?
니네도 기분 나쁘고 짜증나잖아
왜 그런짓을 해;;
우리가 욕해도 
워너원 안죽잖아.
왜 그딴 짓을 해;;
그리고 하나 말해두는데
워너시티,위너시티 일은 니네가 먼저 시작한거고
위너시티는 인서한테 굉장히 큰 의미있는거야
모르면서 흔한 이름이라고 씨부렁대지마
2~3년의 공백기동안
유일하게 위너와 인서를 이어준 계정이라고
남들 입장 생각해라.
니들 오빠 욕하면 뭐라 하면서 
남들 오빠 욕하지 말고
그리고 '위너원'이 아니고 '워너원'이야
으휴...
이거 위에 '공식'팬카페에 올라온거야
이거 다 팬이 올린거야
니네 오빠 이름이나 제데로 알고 위너랑 비교해라
어떤놈은 
위너원이랑 워너라 하던데
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채우다

항상 무언가 허하다
사랑을 채우려고 해도,
평생이질 못하고.
재물을 채우려고 해도,
남들만큼 써보고 싶어하고.
허영심을 채우려고 해도,
그마저도 아까워 쓰질 못하고.
식탐으로 채우려고 해도,
배는 불어오는데 입은 허전해하고.
독서로 채우려고 해도,
슬픔만 내 일인양 알고서는 즐거움은 모르고.
어딘가 모자란 나를 
끝없이 채워줄 누군가가 있기를
..지쳐서 나가떨어지지않기를
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어둠

항상 어둠이라는것은 보통 사람들이 싫어한다
사람들이 좋아하는건 밝은것 
어둠을 싫어하는 사람이 대부분이다
하지만 난 밝은것 보다 어둠을 더 좋아한다
음침녀라 불릴수도 있겠지만 내가 좋아하는걸 말하는것 뿐인데 그들이 뭐라한들 내가 신경쓸 필요있나
정작 보면 그들이 더욱 어둠 같다
사람들을 괴롭히고 아무렇지 않게 상처 주는 그들이
더욱 어둠 같다
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자살

사회를 유지하기 위해선 금기시 해야하는 것 중 하나. 
하지만 막아도 막아도 언젠간...
"너는 그걸 바라니?" 
"글쎄."
"나는 그걸 바라."
"그래."
"네가 날 붙잡아준다면."
"마음이 바뀌겠지."
"그런데 왜."
"하하"
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당직

토요일에 근무다.
토요일은 휴일일까?
토요일에 일하는 사람
토요일에 쉬고 싶은 사람
토요일에 쉬지 않고 있는 사람
토요일에 쉬지 못하고 일하는 사람
나는 그런 사람
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?

타인에게 나에게 모든 것을 털어나도 괜찮다고 말하곤 했다
스스로를 신뢰할 만한 사람이라고 생각했기 때문에.
어쩌면 신뢰라는 이름으로 스스로를 포장하여, 
타인에게 비밀을 밝히라고 암묵적인 강요를 했었을지도 모른다
하지만 나는 내 얘기를 꺼내지 않는다
나를 알리는 것이 나의 약점이 될까봐.
'타인을 믿지 못해 나를 감춰버렸거나 혼자 겁을 먹고 적극적이지 않거나 둘 중 하나겠지'
생각을 결단지으면서 다른사람도 나와 같은 생각을 가지고 있다고 깨달았다
결국, 말하기가 조심스러워졌다